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Over feelings

Things have been going so well lately. I can't quite put my finger on it, but it's like God has tied up so many lose ends that were hanging. We're married, both in jobs we love, and we're settled into our home. God has also renewed our minds in many ways and has put an invigorating newness into our marriage. We are blessed.

Despite all of those blessings, I have been a total grouch for some unexplainable reason this week. I have been negative, whiny, exhausted, and pretty much zero fun to be around. I don't have any reason AT ALL to behave this way, but I also can't seem to snap out of it. Thankfully, John and my coworkers are patient with me.

All of this has reminded me that our joy should NOT stem from circumstances. Regardless of my physical circumstances and how "well" "things" are, I should carry the same joy always. Yes, God has put me in a place that I am SO thankful for, but I should have been just as joyful months ago as I am right now because my joy should stem from HIM. My joy should comes from the freedom I have in Christ and the privilege of sharing a relationship with Him.

I've just started reading a great book - Emotionally Healthy Spirituality - so I'm hoping that it will speak to this somewhat and possibly help me figure out why my emotions are so fickle. The book already said that "To feel is to be human," which is true - but I wish I could just make some feelings go away sometimes!

Grateful for this forum to process & write.

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