Reflections and Responses

Christy Nockels' song "Wonderful" describes how I am feeling about Jesus after a recent series of events in my life. We should always feel this way about Jesus,  but if we are honest, I think many of us would say that there are times when we don't feel this way about Him. There are times when we are confused, frustrated or stubbornly wanting to reject the way He is orchestrating our circumstances. I was feeling that way until He completely clarified something for me. Now that this distracting situation is removed and I'm not confused, I feel like I can fully see again... and you know what I am seeing? I'm seeing him moving and I'm seeing His purposes and intentions in the circumstances I had been finding so disturbing. How crazy that He loves us and waits patiently with open arms for us to "get it" while our arms are crossed in frustration? Here are the lyrics... Jesus, You are so wonderful.  So wonderful in all Your ways.  The highes...

John and I had a conversation one night this week about the future. What do we want? Where do we want to land - with our careers, our family, our finances? How and where do we want to share Jesus with people? What is He asking us to step into? The thing is... we really don't know. We know that we both love what we do now. But we really aren't seeing beyond right now. This is good on one hand, because it forces us to have childlike faith, trusting God one day at a time without being able to see beyond that. Dependance on Him is a good thing, no questions asked. However, it's frustrating on the other hand because it makes it hard to set goals and know what direction to lean if we don't know where we are headed. Some days I really want to be a suburban super mom who is really beautiful and manages to cart my kids around, rock an intense fitness class, and then have a gourmet dinner waiting on my husband as he walks in the door every day, no sweat. But then I sit next...

This has been a fast, intense week, but in some really good ways! John's away for class #2 of his Master of Public Administration degree, so I've been "bacheloretting" it up since Sunday! I've had dates with girlfriends almost every night he's been gone. I've headed from busy work days straight to restaurants to meet with gal pals. I've loved my time with dear friends, but my body hasn't loved me for not even getting HOME until after my bedtime has already passed (oops). Breaking out of your routine sometimes is healthy though, especially when it results in quality time with people you love and who minister to you and you to them. I've had several great, challenging conversations with really good friends of mine this week. I've left each conversation praying that God will help me process and glean from each conversation whatever He wants me to glean. I feel like He is helping me see selfish places in my heart where I have betrayed Hi...