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For a while now (way too long, actually), I've dreamed about a big, personal writing project, but I haven't begun the work. My reasoning was that I wasn't ready. I've been waiting to reach a level of spiritual intimacy that somehow qualified me or made me worthy to write this material, which will center on faith. (I know, funny - keep reading.) Beginning the project before I was qualified/valid/equipped/"legit" seemed hypocritical since most days I either putz around and waste what precious little free time I have, or I busy myself with other not-as-important "priorities" (perhaps as a form of avoidance or denial?).

I had an epiphany about this today and realized two things:

1. Doing the work may be just what I need to do in order to grow in my spiritual life. I will mature in the process of researching, writing, and wrestling with this material. The process will force me to seek out answers through scripture and prayer. I'll be breathing in God's Word, which never comes back void, and aiming to share what He's put in my heart. Plus, writing "out loud" has always helped me process and organize my thoughts. 

2. The Bible is filled with stories of God calling the unqualified. Hello! How many sermons, tweets, and corny Christian merch have I encountered that share some variation of this message? If God put this in my heart, He's going to equip me to do it. My job is obedience. His is outcomes.

Maybe my revelations were not earth-shattering to you, but perhaps someone else needs to be reminded that he is qualified indeed to do that thing he dreams about and will be refined in the process. 

More soon!

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