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My Prayers Tonight

Thank you, God for the things I have been a part of and the places that you have taken me. And thank you, God, for moving me forward.

Thank you for shifting my focus and resetting the stepping stones on the path.

Thank you for cleansing my mind. Thank you for reshaping my priorities, wiping the fog off of my lenses, widening my perspective, causing me to have so many questions, shredding my confidence because it was rooted in the wrong things, and allowing me to get uncomfortable... because that's when I grow.

 Thank you for beginning to restore peace. Thank you for straightening my slumped shoulders, lifting my eyes, brightening my view, reminding me of your unconditional goodness, beginning to reveal how the pieces might fit together one day, helping me trust you, patiently reminding me of my role versus yours and affirming that you are the source of all that's good.

Thank you for your unwavering steadiness through it all. Thank you that nothing is too difficult for you, nothing unsettles you, and that nothing is a surprise to you. Thank you for tenderly caring for my needy heart. Thank you for allowing - even welcoming - me to rest all of my weight on you and just lean on you for a while. Thank you that we can just be together in silence at times, quiet and still - thank you for your peaceful presence and the comfort of silence when it's silence that's intentionally spent with you.

 Thank you for loving me exactly where I am, but loving me too much to keep me here. Thank you for feeling the same way about me yesterday and thank you in advance for feeling the same way about me tomorrow.

 I love you, oh Lord, my strength. You are always near to me - help me stay near to you.

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