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Not a Disappointment

I recently received some disappointing news, which led to an awesome, very deep talk with my husband. Interestingly, through this conversation, God revealed that I have been believing a significant lie: that I am a disappointment to several key people.

I realized that I have been believing that I am a disappointment to my husband, co-workers, and some friends. I have been hearing lies about my weaknesses as a wife (ex: my cooking skills), my abilites at work (not good enough), and how good of a friend I am to certain people (ex: I don't reach out to them enough, I'm too focused on myself, etc.). The enemy has been working to convince me that I'm a disappointment to some of the people I hold dearest. And I haven't been making him work very hard - I've fallen for his schemes hook, line, and sinker.

For a while, I've had a hard time understanding why I feel I am a self-confident person, yet I struggle with insecurities in so many areas. God showed me that it's because I'm choosing to listen to Satan's summary of who I am instead of God's. I have been hearing him whisper discouraging remarks about my abilities as a wife, employee, and friend, resulting in feelings of insecurity, not "measuring up," and leading me to approach my husband, co-workers and friends in an apologetic, far-from-confident way. Basically, believing these lies has kept me from being myself and letting the Spirit live through me. Satan has been distracting me from accomplishing what God wants me to accomplish and living the live of freedom Christ died to give me. I've been choosing less by receiving these lies.

I'm feeling that there is more to unpack as I continue to process the fact that I've been entertaining these lies. I'm so grateful that God pointed this out to me, and I find it very interesting that He did so through a conversation about a circumstantial disappointment. Pray for me if the Spirit brings me to your mind. Pray that I will hear and believe the truth, and that the truth will set me free.

"So God created mankind in His own image, in the image of God He created them..." Gen. 1:27

Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. - 2 Corinthians 3:17-18

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  1. AnnaAugust 31, 2011 at 9:17 PM

    This is so good. Thank you for sharing this!!!

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  2. KristenAugust 31, 2011 at 10:24 PM

    Girrrrl, on the same path. The scripture that I'm clinging to is Proverbs 30:8-9. If I am too self sufficent, I'm prideful, if I am "poor" & believe lies of Satan, then I dishonor my God. I desire only what I can handle and do through him on a daily basis.
    You're fantabulous.
    kf

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  3. Shannon ScottAugust 31, 2011 at 11:50 PM

    things to discuss at our lunch! love it. love deep thinkers. love you.

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  4. Leigh HarperSeptember 1, 2011 at 11:24 AM

    Thank you, wonderful ladies. So appreciate your prayers and comments...!

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  5. AmySeptember 7, 2011 at 4:30 AM

    Wow, Leigh. Thanks for sharing! May we walk in the truth...it is hard, but so worth it and God will help us- thank you for sharing and bringing this to the forefront for us!!

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