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Not about "jeans," but "genes."


Well, it's been a Leigh-vs.-the-inbox kinda week. The bright side of that is the fact that God is preparing to do some really huge things: Passion 2012 and launching a morning gathering at passion city church. I'm honestly really excited when I think about those two things... and I'm extremely humbled that He allows me to play a tiny role in them. Focusing on those two end results and the literal Kingdom impacts that will result helps me stop growling at my inbox. :-)

Anyway, that's not what I logged on to say.

Had a thought this evening about confidence and identity. Something I have struggled with in the last year is feeling free to be who I really am and letting go of self-consciousness. Tonight God helped me draw a connection between identity and John 3:30: "He must increase; I must become less."

If we will just stop TRYING so hard to BE anything in particular and instead direct that energy toward being sensitive to the Holy Spirit, we will be who we were created to be. Icing on the cake? Confidence will follow, a real confidence - not the kind that comes from a good pair of jeans, but the kind that comes from knowing we come from good GENES (our dad is a King - ha! Sorry for the corny pun.).

I wish I could go back and take the hours I spent worrying about my image - replaying conversations I had with people, analyzing their thoughts of me, etc. - and change those into hours of prayer and solitude before God, asking Him to help me stay in step with the Spirit and listen to His promptings. Asking him to take away the flurry of thoughts about myself and instead help me be a bringer of light and a carrier of the Name.

As the cliche says, hindsight is 20/20 of course, but I hope that when my next self-reflective thought comes through my mind, I can speak John 3:30 and remember whose daughter I am. This will help me act and become more like the person I'm longing to reflect: not Leigh, Jesus.

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